In loving memory

Followed my student's Spotify playlist as she recommended and chanced upon this song. The writer wrote it in remembrance of his grandma. Sad lyrics, which reminded me of my late grandma too. One part of the lyrics hit home: "I sat with you beside your bed & cried for things that I wished I'd said. And if I live past 72, I hope I'm half as cool as you." :'( 

Mama (grandma). Hope you've been well. Nine years flew by so fast. I miss our weekly phone calls and random chatter. Your crinkled smile. Your sad eyes when you recall the hard life you went through.

I wished I'd been more careful with my words. I wish I could take back what I said when I asked about your past. I saw the pain on your face, but being so young, I thought nothing of it until of late. I'm sorry. I guess it's too late to ask for forgiveness.

Now, I share our memories with my students through a poem they learn about a living photograph. The grandmother in the poem reminds me of you; gone, yet alive in my heart.

When I see you again, please welcome me with open arms. Just like old times.

I love you always. 

HELLO EVERYONE!

this teacher is still alive. I think this year has been less chaotic compared to last year. Last year, i had SO many shite to learn, i just could not keep up. This year, my head is more level-headed. But Still got LOTS to learn.

Every day I envy my mum who's retired; she wakes up, and the whole day she spends it chilling and doing whatever she likes. I can't wait to retire. :O

But I also must enjoy my young adulthood. I've wasted it pretty much D: my few years left before the big three oh! DAMN.

AGE waits for no one. NO ONE.

Had one of the busiest weeks this week; lack of sleep, non-stop action, MC-ing, corresponding with VIPs etc. Made me feel exhausted, spent, tired and discouraged I could not focus on my research.

After a tiring two-day run, I dreaded going for the meet with my supervisors because i wana go for the meeting feeling excited, fresh and rejuvenated, not tired and discouraged. But the things he had to say greatly encouraged me, reminding me to persevere on and to work hard.

I hope i keep going and staying afloat!

John Watson: You didn't kill Mary. Mary died saving your life. Her choice. No one made her do it... you did not kill her.

Sherlock Holmes: In saving my life she conferred a value on it - it's a currency I do not know how to spend.

bazinga!

i realized many things.

i realized... i ought to be more initiative in my actions, in work. 

i realized i ought to ask more and stop assuming things. 

i realized every man is an island - whether they wana admit or not.

i realized that relying on my ownself won't work - i'll go back to square one, aka struggling.

all these realizations took place on my 5th year of being 21.

well. bazinga!

ramblings

Reconnecting myself to my roots of music!! 

there was a period in time where I ignored classical music. Gosh what a snob i was, and when i revisited it again, I was humbled and inspired. Damn if you can play classical music you can play any type of music genre. I recommend starting with piano first, because the basics of piano is extremely worth it as it creates a solid foundation for rhythm, timing, style, chords etc etc. Once you can play piano, playing guitar, the bass and drums will be a breeze. no regrets learning how 2 play the piano. used to hate theory but love practical lol. It's one of the best things that I cherish for life, because having the opportunity to channel your thoughts and emotions into playing is magical.