Put the past away.

wahh.. 2012 has come to an end. Still reeling from the shock that 2013 is here. Yep time flies indeed. 

Every time before a year ends, I would journal down and reflect how has that year been, asking myself questions like wht are d significant events tht happened, happy and sad moments, what have i learnt, where was God in '12 etc.. It really made me look back and see how far I've come and how much I've learnt. I'm slowly seeing how God is moulding me and pushing me out of my comfort zone. Painful, tough, yes, but I understand it's who He wants me to be. Still learning to, of course :) 

2012, a good year. A year with many significant events (which you can already see from my latest posts haha) and more happy than sad moments. I've also learnt some valuable lessons, learnt that not everyone's perfect, that everyone makes mistakes. all in a year's work. heh. 

2012; my favourite year of all years. Loved it. And now as a new year comes, I shall treasure all memories, people who've impacted me, all the encouragement and meaninful events dearly. Here's me closing 2012 with a grateful and peaceful heart. (Though I wish I could re-live some awesome moments!) Whattado. What has passed has passed. Carpe diem! o yeah. seize the day, peeps.

p/s what a greater way to spend the new year at watchnight service with people who have been significant to me in 2012. muackzzz. lots of love from me to you.

tata '12. twas a great year. *cheers* 

nostalgia

so many things have happened, but Christmas remained one of the events I look forward to the most. This Christmas has been special, especially the bond among choir peeps. It's been great berbonding with people whom I always hang out with and also with those whom I hardly got the chance to sit down and chat with. It has been a wonderful journey with God and with them. :) 

Here're some pics from friends' fbs & my 'canggih' phone: 

not choir, but tlc caroling. :) twas great singin in 3 houses, n feeling tired, but a good kind of tired. ;p

kisses. Vera, cecil, joyce. youthful ppl tht keeps me young.

now this is TLC choir at Nilai gospel hall for our 'touring'. 

narrators; jenna and i :). we couldn't have memorize our kinda last min scripts if it weren't for God's help.

after our christmas performance. joyce and rach. we hv a whatsapp chat group called Sakai Gurlz. yezzahh

matt and lucy, kawan baikku.

joyee,lucy,cecil, matt & jo. great singing with u all.

the 3 stooges. my fav gurls ;) will miss you when u go to GLO, xian. 

Mr Conductor jo & amie. :) we'll miss you leading us in choir jo! thanks for sharing your gift in music with us. u've inspired many with your talent.

sakai faces

TLC Choir 2012. 

moral of the story: choir brings people together to serve Him bersama. haha. 

Tq God, for everything.

loved ones

wow 9 more days 'til xmas. soo fast. also, i have 1 more week left until Semester 1 closes. :) soldier on!! yeahh. 

i realized my blog's pretty dry, no pictures and stuff. so here's some pics frm my instagram/phone/ppl's fbs tht i've imported here haha.. these pics are events/ppl i've hung out with recently, that have impacted me in a small, or big way. :) 

regular choir pracs. it's been a great blessing to be in choir and to meet so many different people from all ages. enjoyed the singing, berbonding & grilling frm choir master haha.

-taken frm amie's fb-

meet some of my alto choir members ;) (L): amie, joyce, aunt rosalind, sharon. they're my fellow alto comrades haha.. <3 nbsp="nbsp">

xianjing and su. got to know su better this yr :) cool yf leader, fren, advisor, mcd kawan. haha. XJ and i are close buddies oredi, bt this yr we've gotten closer. my makan+shoppin+hanging out kaki <3 p="p">

taken frm joyce's fb. selyna, rachael, joyce. VBS 2012. it's refreshing to serve with younger ppl coz they remind u of d time when u're their age, and they help u see things in a diff perspective. all my good buddies. love ya gurls <3 p="p">

jenna + joseph. i got to know both of them a lot better this year through choir too. jenna's a nice gal, easy to chat with & who's real and sincere with no facade or front. need book recommendations? find her ;p. joseph, ah the choir head. cool guy, quirky n funny, good teacher + advisor + encourager. tq for all yr insight about uni + life after uni. yes, it's a blessing to meet both of them.

lovely coffee from artisan roast coffee. WORTH IT. Taman tun dr ismail, go google. very nice. :) And beef noodles slurps. first time eating this with some gellatin thingy that is chewable. not bad. worth a second shot.

last but not least, an xmas party at melvin's house, the most recent event. really good food & fellowship with the girls. couldn't ask for more lah.. then got xmas carols lalala! (: and i miss Dianaong + teresalo who's overseas. good to see teresa recently, it was a warm and great catch up. take care u gurls <3 p="p">

that's all. too panjang dy haha. tata for now. :) 

rare gems

I had a good brunch, coffee and good talk with two lovebirds yesterday. Other church peeps were supposed to join us but sobs they ditched me, leaving me with them. Not that I mind but everyone said that I am a lamp post hehe partially true, but the couple didn't feel that way. Anyway, I was encouraged by the advice given, the words they said that made me re-consider certain things and see things from a different perspective, the genuineness they showed...and not to mention how in love they are! awww :') 

It was good getting to know them better. Thanks J&J :) and thank God for people like them who so happened to walk into my life.

chikabowow

I would like to share this vbs song that the music team and i taught the kids. how apt!

If God holds my days in His hands,

If God has power over my circumstance,

If God knows the plans He has for me,

Why should I fear?
Why should I worry?

If God is for me, who can be against me? (x2)

Whatever happens I know, I can trust He is in control,

For if GOd is for me, who can be against me? 

It is well.

Last week i had VBS! Vocation Bible School, an event for kids std1-6 to teach them bits and pieces of what Christianity is all about. I helped out in the music dept where we had to teach kids simple dance steps. :) Somehow vbs acted as a getaway for me too from assignments and uni, to just chill ;) had a sleepover at a fren's plce during tht period and it was nice & warm to know her family more, and to talk and relax and chill more. 

this week is a tough week with two assignments to hand in. So for this wk only, i've decided to go home everyday instead of staying in campus to replenish and rest and do assignments, for doing assignments at home is the best. What's more, choir practices are 3times per week :/ we're running a lil' late this year but that's ok. because..

all is good =)

The holidays were real good while it lasted. I rested and recuperated, had lotsa fun and laughter with peeps, had a heart to heart talk with a church mate, a great sleepover with a funky lass and not forgetting assignments. 1 more assignment left to slay. pfft

week 10 approaches, and I am numb towards all excitement about returning to The Hole. Another 6 more weeks of lectures and then sem break and then exam. Can't wait for the exams to be over and done with. Can't wait for the 3week break w00t. It's like "a never-ending cycle", quoth yewkong. Pretty deep but yea, he's right.

happy entering week 10. 

Lord give me the strength needed!

Yeah! The adventures of Ted Bear. Always cracks me up every time I watch it. Me fav.

39 days til christmas wow cepatnyaa.

break!

For this 1 week break: 

-I shall enjoy sipping coffee at a slow pace, savouring every drop, sitting on my fav armchair. I love coffee. It keeps me awake, alert & helps me do assignments at top speed. :)

-go out makans with friends. this keeps me sane from the whirlwind of assignments.

-play as much piano

-rest.

sunshine

This week as in week 9 has been the worst week of all. I've been so busy with all the hand ins, forums, meetings and practices that it drained me, making me pretty tired mentally and physically. I've been wanting this week to end so badly......

.....And it IS ending. really thank God for pulling me through this crazy week. phew. The break is on its way! hallelujah

tides that rock your socks

next year will be quite a big change for me. It will be a very good learning experience if I say yes to it. but i've been warned subtly it's a long- time commitment. if I take ownership, I'll have to do it for quite some time...a few years...'til i'm married off to some other church xp, if i do. another part of me is saying i'm not ready, saying that it's a daunting responsibility. and the fear is not helping either. I need to have a sit-down-cum-coffee-session with The Sifu before agreeing to it.. :/

Will I take the baton? Will I rely on Him as I take ownership, or just my own strength? Or will I give it a pass and continue to stay in my little comfort shell? 

2013 will tell. :)

As for now, this is gona be in my mind for a while. ugh.. decisions, decisions. Since when are they ever easy? Yup it's a rhetorical question.

sovereignty.

keeps me awake. i nd one

november is creeping in and i'm excited. can't wait for vbs, december and 2013. new year, new beginnings, fresh starts, new motivations...in with the new and out with the old. let bygones be bygones. 

"O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?"

The Gem

I know this is late but... the band Queen is ahmahzing. Beyond comprehension by any living person. Freddie Merc is brilliant. Absolutely god-gifted. I don't know how I led myself to Queen tht made me realized how awesome they are.i can't believe I've never really listened to them! prolly coz of different era. 

I wiki-ed Freddie and read his brief bio and background and i must say...hmm not the most innocent guy around but he had an amazing amazing talent and you can't deny it. I mean, his composition on Bohemian Rhapsody was real intricate. So so sad he died of HIV. And get this: "Although he cultivated a flamboyant stage personality, Mercury was a very shy and retiring man in person, particularly around people he did not know well". From Wiki. wow no kidding. -.-

What a sad thing to die so early at age 45 with SO much talent. :(

baba yetu

I can't believe it's mid-oct now. means 2 more months 'til 2012 comes to an end. Time really flies. 

A few church mates & I went for Ovation by The Canticle Singers to support my church mate, aliza who's singing innit :) met my dear coursemate, Cherie and her matriculation friend there whoa what a surprise. Annnd I got to see my lecturer sing too! :) They were pretty awesome. Cherie and I were in awe haha. 

I have much to learn in handling a choir and stuff like that because I'm a major noob and very inexperienced unlike joseph the choir head, but whatever comes my way, with God's guidance and courage I'll try my best. to God be the glory. 

here's a song to end this post, called Baba Yetu. Cherie posted on my fb wall and man it's so addictive! it was also the first song tht was sung by The Canticles. this masterpiece was composed by Christopher Tin for a game called Civilization. But it was made into SATB for a capella with percussion accompaniment. 'Baba Yetu' is a Swahili language-translation of the Lord's Prayer. You should look up the composer, Christopher Tin. reading his achievements on wiki really amazes me, hence his brilliant composition for baba yetu. fuyoh hot stuff. (source: Wiki)

have a good October. :)

i can't tell you why*

syoknya! ;p ku mau buat gitu.

Been listening to quite a lot of old songs lately and man, they are the best. very soothing for the soul. (Y) I enjoy being cooped up in my little uni room late at night listening to them, with a cuppa. 

Short+Sweet musical has finally ended. :) didn't win anything but that's all right, i've gained so much. And a few liked my composition :') aww. that meant a lot ady, tq guys. 

So week 4's about to end and in comes week 5. woot bring on the pumpkin carriages but don't forget the poisoned apple, it's as if i've been cursed. bahaha.

*the title of this post is a song by the Eagles. brilliant

i just had to.

is anything wrong with the sentence? 

a)yes 

b)yes

u can hire me&my tesl mates to proof-read your website nanti k f.o.c sumore. no hard feelings i still lup u

xoxo 

pendek & manis

so here're some pictures from our first opening night of Short + Sweet Musical 2012! :)

these pictures were taken from Short+Sweet fb by the awesum photographer Sergei & also S+S blog.

opening speech by big names in the arts scene, Joe & faridah.

the beautiful cast.

from L-R: joanna, jeswey, melissa, weilyn and aaron.

curtain call!

awesome people behind background music :) !

2more nights to go & the curtains will close on this. looking forward to it but at the same time dreading it! 

It's here!

finally, my short&sweet musical has arrived! It's happening tmr 26-29th sept at klpac. 

so excited :) can't wait for it to be over so that I can prioritize on other things (like studies and choir). it has been a long but fun and exciting journey working with the cast and crew. Hope we can win at least one award which is glitz and glamour!!

ta~

parachutes

when are they gona be here? 

retrospective

sem 1 of year 2 has begun! No more being the wide-eyed blur freshie but the more experienced sophomore. i think.;p I have classes every mon-thurs at 8am and it has been a struggle getting up early every day. darn. morning classes are such a pain! :( classes are all right, no biggie. Am looking forward to poetry and everything that has to do with eng lit. :)

i met two juniors who are in courses that a) was my first choice & which i wanted so much and b)i was actually considering of taking. choice a) is of course English and b) is music. haha. talking to them made me asked myself; what if i took one of those courses? and how would things be right now. would i be happy? sad? hmm.

 i was greatly intrigued by what took place in the music course. i heard from one junior that majority are classical pianists with a minority of cellists, vocalists (they hv tht?!) and saxophonists. If I were to masuk, i sure won't fit in classical coz i lost touch.. but maybe under the contemporary/songwriter/hymnic genre if they have? i doubt lah. 

but anyway. i can't help but think what would have become if i were in either two. and to be honest i can't help but feel a tinge of envy+regret because they got what they wanted, something that they loved doing. :/ Im in year 2 and I still have bits and pieces of reluctance in me about my course. hahah i must be wonky. But hey I can't help it. however, tesl has helped me a lot actually. i know i'm innit for a reason, and yup He has plans for me in tesl. dont know what, i shall wait and see. 

have a good week peeps. (: countdown: 10days more 'til Short+Sweet Musical! SO excited because, I think we're pretty good, seeing how far we've come. Yup you've no idea. And some more my first ever musical/music composition I've entered/fixed up! but that i shall leave it for another blog post. 'Ta!

"let my people go".

actually i quite malas to update my blog but lately i've been watching a few animated films and I think there's one that's worth mentioning: the prince of egypt.

i remembered watching this when i was a kid but i didn't know how to appreciate the movie as a whole; the storyline, the music, the emotions etc.. but now, I am in awe lah of their musical arrangements...flawlessly crafted and shaped ie the change of keys, from minor to major chord with some augmented and diminish chords, d bckground orchestra n choir, d composition and arrangement itself is..gah......too awesomesauce to say it here.. even thinking about it gives me good chills. so yes tht's how good it is. pls go watch. and be amazed.

also, the emotions running through Moses! cant imagine. overwhelmed, guilt, hope, confusion, betrayal. Very moving. One of the very best animated films of all time. Notice how each music arrangement fits a specific scene so very well that that scene sprung to life and hehe made me tear up. I felt as though, I lived in that era and I was there when all that happened. So moving and amazing i cant stop gushing over it.

do watch it. :)

thts all tata. oh ya forgot to mention uni's starting shucks.

let's waste time

"..and just forget the world.?"

shoot.

Time. waits for no one.

YiYeen reminded me: Col 3:23. ngaw. so timely. xoxo.

come on.

im 21 already. time to slowly let me go, to have my own freedom.

slow it down.*

my level of maturity depends with whom i hang out with. haha betul. 

anyway nothing much to blog on my side, just that holidays are superbly relaxing & that I seriously dread dread dread uni + responsibilities and whatnot. bleh shoot me, but reality is inevitable. Embrace it rather than  fight against it. Strength i need lord. Sept = busy month! short&sweet musical's on 26th-29th sept every night (klpac. no dont come see me n the team perform haha. xP), plus its practices (i foresee myself commuting in and out of uni weekly), not forgetting xmas choir, pkv, annddd studies of course. Haha. Daunting? perhaps, perhaps not. we'll see.

here's a blast from the past; kiss from a rose by Seal. One of my all-time absolute favs from zaman dahulu. Brilliant song, this.

muah.

*'slow it down' is a line frm Coldplay's song "Us against the world." a line that is apt to this post.

little things.

today, i babysitted a church friend, Rachael and we had lotsa fun. great, mindless, high-school-drama-girl-problem-ish fun. 

Me: hey rachael look what i made out of these wires. *puts on her hand* guess!

Rach: What's that?

Me: Poop! :) 

Both: HAHAHAHA.

too lame to understand, but we do. :-) and we're 8 years apart. I'm 21, she's 13. And we clicked. Haha. Funny how things worked. My other sista frm another motha. Xoxo.

lighter shades.

when i saw this pic, it caught my attention instantly and images/memories started filling my head on occasions that the above happened. 

Life.

btw. 26-29th sept. the musical i'm helping my church fren in.

http://shortandsweetmalaysia.blogspot.com/2012/08/congratulations-shortlisted-for-ss.html

spot our names thre under title 'background music'. gah. amidst all stress/pressure/workload aside, a positive way to see it is i'm improving myself & learning something new/training myself up for what's to come nxt whenever, wherever lah. so....hiyyah!

to be...or not to be

as i stare at my music certs, it made me reminisce my music lessons..and made me realized how much i miss playing classical music. it has been 6 1/2 yrs since i've done grd 8, and abt 4 yrs since i've actually practiced on a classical piece. those were d days...

lack of playing classical stiffens my fingers and slows them down when i tried playing them again haha..i sound old lik a gramma. but leaving classical gave more time to experiment other genres and made lotsa room 4 improvement.

but i wonder what would have happened if i continue classical aftr grd8? hmmm. a road that i did not choose, not tht i regret it but.....just....curious.

this is me on 1 of my thoughtful days. :)

beautiful.

what would your reflection be?

herow.

never have i been so worked up by a badminton game. But it's not just any game, it's the olympics with our man DLCW representing msia. It was a good game. He played brilliantly and never gave up. Such an inspiration to me that I just had to pen it here. I'm so inspired by his semangat & determination. 

I felt so sad when the camera showed his disappointed face. It made me tear up. All the training and pain endured by him, just two points away from the medal...if we feel the pain seeing lcw so saddened, what more he himself! pain amplified 1000 times. 

But we are very. very proud of you. :-) no apologies accepted because you did your BEST. and we know it. cheer up, fellow msian! <3 p="p">

if i see him in ou or anywhere i will give him a warm hug and some encouraging words. :') 

His eye's on the sparrow...

As august comes and as I look back, I am thankful because:

-i hv a place to stay in campus even though i'm a PJ kid, whereas a few of my peeps who're frm JB etc didnt get. 

-Campcam changed my perspectives on things. Really thankful for this. 

- I have a great family and good friends I can count on..
-My hands are full from aug-dec. fooh a packed opera house you may say. I need more hands. Responsibilities, stress (?), guidance, commitment, stepping out, learning.... :B . But amidst all this I know i'm not alone coz I have my God who oversees these things, who's greater than all of these. 

-i am easily contented. haha which is a good thing. Which means gimme a choc/anything anytime and if i like it i'll feel happyy ;p which is a greatt stress-reliever. woot

- i have an accountability partner which started in campcam. Jess my senior. duno la we can click i guess. great companion to talk to.

....I knw He watches ovr meh.

like I said before, nadia gave me great movies, and so one of the many was The King's Speech. It. was. good. very inspiring. I read somewhere that he was a king the people so loved, because he was there 4 them eventhough he stammered a lot. He was a good king. great great show!! loved it. loved every moment of it. was it boring? nope. i like thought-provoking movies. :-) 

next up is Cast Away..

btw my basil plant is still stagnant. no sign of growth yet.

a few things together

you know how frustrated/excited you can be when you're trying to decipher intricate chords in an intricately-carved song?

Yeah. :( You THINK you know that chord but actually it's not the original chord. I managed to crack the intro, and half of the verse. but not all. Not to mention the piano part is pretty fast and quite soft, so it's a lil tricky. i've dealt with worse lik jazz music but somehow i feel the chords of this song r within my reach woots.  nonetheless it's a challenge for me, and a challenge I must complete. :P 

here's the vid of that song (btw it's a greatt song. i loved it. thanks Al.):

I have planted a basil plant given by Al too :) it'll be my thing to do during hols; watering and nurturing it. 

Yup i duno what I meant by nurturing it. talking? singing to it? amateur gardening for noobies like me. it's a start.

Swing.

pls click the above to view better. Courtesy of Coldplay/facebook.

One of my dreams is to go to a Coldplay concert. :) 

Blessed.

Presenting to you my new phone: Samsung Galaxy Y. 

yep, my reward for the improvement in exam results woot. It may not be as canggih-manggih as Iphone but it has d basic necessities that a student needs, like going on fb, twitter, mail, whatsapp, music n messaging. 

hols are here 'til end of august and so far, so good. : ) bored? yeah a bit, but enjoying the fact of being bored. When Year 2 starts, there's no time to be bored. haha... a phlegmatic's point of view, tqvm.

Till then fellows. ta.

L'chaim.

i'm back to pj;) it's good to be back. Sad to leave campcam, but happy to be back. :-)

CC '12 = restoration, surprises, fellowship, assurance, love among fellow christians. I enjoyed the whole 3 wks there and no regrets going. 

I told my Ephraim family that our friendships are definitely worth keeping, because I felt tht we've shared something so...real. at least for me. 

life goes on after campcam. but it has made an impact in me. :) tq, our Sun & Shield.

ta.

i'm off to this camp called camp camerons from 2-21st july. yeap 19days away, stuck in cameron highlands without fb, twitter, email, mcds...civilization. :( this is called sacrifice. baha. 

i hope it'll be a good decision to go! heard lotsa stories about how it's good, n etc. we'll see, in 3weeks' time.

the packing... is not the fun part. packing for 4 days is already so !@%$, what about 3weeks?! time to learn to pack, TM. :P

I will miss you PJ. and fb. and twitter. and mcds. chatime. OU. church. pj friends. <3

nadia (about her trip to cambodia): i wanted to adopt some kids but turns out they all have parents. sad. :P

haha! i have very funny and strange friends indeed.

life is fun with awesome friends, and i'm blessed to have my uni mates, church peeps and some high school buddies with me. cant name them all but just to let you know each and everyone of you are significant to me, in my life. :) <3

i thank God for you all.

the sun comes out anyway

looks like i've not been selected to stay in my collge for next sem. to be honest i'm not worried or bothered at all haha coz im frm pj so i hv a home to stay :) so..wht about applying to 9th collge? they have a very strong choir *wriggles eyebrows* but i shouldn't get my hopes too high, because underdogs can win too.

 anyway, here's my opinion on having auditions. the main reason for it is to know whether one sings in pitch, whereas the secondary reason is to hear one's voice quality, not the other way around like how i tink my previous collge did. in my opinion la haha. 

so henceforth, think wisely as to what the word 'audition' means. :) teehee.

ok project composing black-gospel music for a friend begins.....NOW.

meet pearly, my good friend.

we can have strange conversations about mcds; what we ordered, the price, how did it taste etc. 

we (or at least I am) are hardcore fans of mcds.

tqvm

i erased our pictures coz it's P&C. 

get real lah

irony: an outcome of events contrary to what was, or might have been, expected.

the beauty of irony. 

sly fox.

there's a wolf beneath a sheep's skin. 

yes, i do have a few friends who fit the description above. =/ took them a year to reveal their true colours. haha well. secret's out. ;)

off to malacca frm tmr onwards 'til sunday for cf committee planning. xtremely lazy to pack since i just brought bk my stuff on monday and hv to re-pack again. see laziness again. tsktsk. hols taking a toll on me.

"empty your hands, of overheard conversations." -The weepies.

farewell.

and with that Year 1 comes to an end! *throws confetti and pops champagne* wow. so. I have successfully completed my first year in Universiti Malaya. speechless. 

I can't pen down every single thing that happened in Year 1, but all I can say is it was a journey I'll remember as a freshie. :) 

just one word: thank you God.

to-do list for holidays: haha:(after all the camps and bla):

1)read novels

2)rest, watch the movies nadia gave meh

3) hang out. with ppl older and younger than me.

4) sloth as much, be a couch potato as much.

5) poetry? nah. maybe. ok fine yes. i need to consult some poetry masters. 

6) go skiing

7) create a solution for Alzeimer's. 

8) meet Coldplay. and the weepies. n the bird n the bee.

ok brilliant, the list is set.

Billie Yusak reminded me frm her vid tht she tagged me: that despite all things tht happened, I'm reminded that there's hope. Thx billie.

call me? not.

ok. I have done something terrible, especially to the music dept in my brain. I have mencemarkan it, because i think 'call me maybe' is quite a catchy song. Yup. No-brainer lyrics and tune. But why? why is the chorus so catchy?? 

after listening to The Weepies, john mayer, The Civil Wars, the bird & the bee and other legendary bands with deep meanings in their lyrics and brilliant tunes, this song is a far cry from it. like, not even close.

but WHy. why did it garner 111 million views?? and why is the tune soo addictiveee. 

after listening it twice and singing along to the chorus, i actually did a headpalm and said whats wrong with me??? nooo. a disgrace to good music. :P

Yes. Someone shoot me please kthxbai.

amazing love.

think about his love, think about his goodness

think about his GRACE that's brought us through....

Comic #3

click onnit. :) happy saturrrrrday.

Comic #2

1 more paper to go and here comes many many exciting things to come. Unicorns, rainbows, chocolates and makans. oh ya and composing black gospel music for a friend's show. gotta submit this thing before i head off to camerons in july for 3 weeks! feeling a bit pressured but hey, no stress no stress. i can do this. I can compose music!! huphup. if not i can always er pass the baton to joseph the music boss. bahaha no lah. that one will be worst case scenario.

anyway. here's another comic strip.

happy flydayyy.