Final week

So all has led up to this week aka final week. the week that some have been waiting for or dreading it. For me it's both i guess. Sad and happy. 

neways my final year production has ended! It was a great feeling to accomplish it but then the realization hit that I won't be seeing many of them until graduation. and that's sad. :/ 

the entire cast and crew of this successful production. TQ to all who've helped; abang Din, the actors, the props team, the costume team, publicity etc. I would like to think that the background crew played a higher role than the actors. For us actors we just memorize the script, act and be on stage. But the ones who made it much nicer are the props, the costumes and abang Din. 

Really kudos to them who've worked so hard! especially abang Din. I noticed tht when the whole crew is chilling and resting, he is the only one who goes around the stage, checking to make sure everything is in place. The amount of effort he puts in for our play can only mean that he really enjoys what he's doing. It's his personal interest and therefore he doesn't find it tiring. *salute* Usually all the behind the scenes work are not appreciated by many, but I just want to say that I really value what you guys have done; your time and sacrifice. 

in many ways, university life has been the most impactful for me. It's the experiences that shaped my thoughts, actions and perceptions and if not for uni, I think I would not have grown as much as I am today.

Time waits for no man, so likewise this chapter is about to come to a close, this journey is about to end. A new chapter awaits at the end of the tunnel where two roads diverged and I find myself contemplating on which path to take. I really don't know what will happen but I'm taking it step by step with God's guidance and goin with the flow, come what may. 

 I read Melmel's post about how she became the friend only in need and I could totally relate to what she's mentioned becoz I've been there too.

Don't we always have that one friend who finds us only when they need something? Like when they want to ask something that concerns their well-being then only they'll come to you. But on other days, you're non-existent.

 I've been through a few where messages are replied super late but surprise surprise, when they want to ask something their replies are like, woosh so fast like Flash the DC superhero. And when they got what they wanted, they'll reply with sweet-loving replies that they don't usually use on a daily basis.

There're some who love to come to you and ask stuff. But when it's your turn to ask them, their lips are sealed. Or when u wana borrow their notes n stuff, they'll be super defensive. (p/s this happens mostly with super kiasu chinese ppl, if u know what I mean). My bro and I always have stories to share about this.

Neways, enuf with all the rant. Cheers to the remaining days left of uni life!!! 

Loss

Finally, something I can blog on besides uni life. Warning, this post is a little self-indulgent. lol.

 Recently I read this book:

It's about the diary of this young Jewish girl, Anne Frank during the Nazi period who, together with her family, went into hiding for 2 years from the Gestapo (horrible German soldiers) who were going from house to house, rounding up all Jews and sending them to extermination & concentration camps. Anne wrote in her diary for 2 years before the Gestapo came and captured her entire family and sent them to camps. 

It was a poignant reminder of what wars can do to the people, especially a very, very stupid and senseless genocide such as the Holocaust, where Anne's family and 6 million other Jews were victims of it. If you don't know what that is, where have u been living?? Under a rock?? This is general knowledge man. shame on u!

The brainchild of Holocaust came from none other than Adolf Hitler, the ruthless monster who gave the order to kill Jews in Europe, either through forced labor, hanging, torture, shooting point-blank or gas chambers. 

The point of what i'm trying to get is... it's such an inhumane thing to do to kill innocent Jews just like that. (Btw 6 million Jews died ok.) Gruesome, cold-blooded, barbaric. Who the heck would think of killing innocent people other than Hitler and his bunch of sadistic henchmen. I duno why but when I read the commentary at the end of the book, a hug wave of sadness hit me hard. So, so atrocious. It's not even considered a massacre because the word massacre cannot encompass such a huge number as 6 million Jews - all dead. It's a genocide already. Sigh.

So hence one of my dream places to visit would have to be the concentration camps that the Jews were sent to. The major camps that I wana visit are Auschwitz, Treblinka and Krakow. I wana be connected to this history that changed the human race, a history that no one will ever forget in thousands of years to come. 

the beginning of the end

 uni is ending in 30 days' time. A part of me feels sad to leave this comfort zone and my uni mates. All the fun and laughter will only be memories after June. We will separate and go our own paths. This is part and parcel of life where people part ways to pursue other things.

But another part of me feels excited to be finally leaving this place tht is starting to make me really complacent and stagnant. I need a new environment with new goals, new things to learn everyday and new people who can inspire me. 

What path I'm to take, I do not know. Thankfully I can look to family & friends older than me for some career advice. 

Ultimately, pray for guidance & wisdom.

Cheers to the final 30 days! Mixed feelings. I duno whether to say Yay/Wohoo or Shucks/Sad.