throbbing...

On saturday, I had my first migraine. It was very, very bad. The thing about me is I am prone to headaches. I get them when I'm too stressed out, lack of sleep, staring at the computer/tv for looong hours etc. But this-this horrible migraine- was really the killer.

this migraine started out in the morning as a slight headache;bearable but annoying. Then as the day progressed it became WORSE. My head/skull wtv was pounding and throbbing like a time-bomb, my ears felt like exploding from the pounding, I felt nauseous and I started to perspire =(

IT WAS HORRIBLE! No words ca describe it. But thank God the migraine faded on Sunday & I was able to go church. Unfortunately I still had a slight headache yesterday @ night.

And today, as I type this I can feel my left eyeball throbbing on and off, about to explode anytime edi, like an egg on a bull's horn. my EYEBALL of all things !! This is definitely a warning to reduce my time staring at the computer screen..or else!!!

on a different note, my internet connection has been really annoying-always going off when i'm online sheesh.

take courage.

Like the picture above, hope is sometimes hidden. So you just gotta put your faith in something unseen, like hope.

The best part is, our hope is in Him (;

And hopefully, I'll get a place in uni haha.

tata

=)

So, what have I been doing at home lately since I ain't working ?

1) go online

2)watch tv like a freakk

3) play ze piano again and again

I prefer no.3 more 'cause I get to come up with weird chords, and play any song I know, and use my creativity juice to the fullest.

That's life for me. And I have a feeling it's gonna change soon. (;

everyday life.

source: deviantart.

What uni to apply? What course? Guide me, Lord.

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Went back to school today to collect my certs and ze results ! Feels nostalgic, walking on the grounds of taman sea. Oh well, that's high school. It's gone now, so, look forward !

my new neighbour is doing renovation, a lot of banging and drilling. I feel like my wall is going to break man. Peace and tranquility will be unattainable for the next few weeks, darn. So I'm cooped up in my study room, with the door closed so I don't have to hear the constant banging.

Trying not to be irritated by the drilling, 'cause it's not their fault, they're just doing their job. Let's see it from their perspectives; they have to endure much much worse than me, some more without any ear-muffs etc. I think when they go for a break their ears will be ringing from the loud noise. Poor, poor people.

Or they're probably used to it.

I hope they go for a lunch break soon.

praise Him

Am back from Sabah (: Well nothing much to see there except unique handicrafts and a great time with my parents. I liked that. It was good.

So, my results came back and I am satisfied and way thankful, considering the last-minute study I did that paid off in the end. Thank you Lord. Really thank you that I passed everything, no fail. *phew.

Glory goes to God for this. :D I is happy !

Now the hard part is applying for uni.

surprised*

my parents surprised me yesterday with a birthday trip to kota kinabalu :) leaving tomorrow and coming back on wed. so surprised and happy, i'll say. Love you mum and dad.

So, this means I don't have to collect my results on my bday. *PHEW* but i still want to find out! Or else I think I'll have an agonizing journey there not knowing it. :P

byebyee!

ka-ching

"But as for me, I trust in you." Psalm 55:23

I'm going to be playing this verse in my head as monday approaches, as I step into the school compound to collect my results.

ready or not, here it comes. 1 more day. oh boyy.

So,in order to take my mind off this, I'll be going for a tea-party at suejern's house for her early birthday. I think when I'm there I won't worry so much about results day.

bye

the jitters

my neighbour on my right is doing some renovation i think 'cause nobody's been staying there for a while. SO noisy. all renovations are noisy.

And I can't watch my Full House in peace !!! argh.

Yeah I'm watching Full House online, don't want to follow the series on tv because I think it's too slow leh.

Anyway, if you haven't been reading the papers, stpm results is coming out this monday! oh man... Don't know what to think... The day has finally arrived. Scared/nervous/jittery.

I sure won't be able to sleep the night before. Sigh. Thinking about it makes me queasy. I'll have to prepare myself for the worse.

Yeap. Won't wanna put my hopes too high because I know that I won't do that well. I'm not trying to be negative, just being realistic.

I told God that I'll be thankful with whatever results He'll give me. And I'll stay true to it. Yeah, I'll be thankful with whatever I get, and more thankful if I can enter uni.

that's all. tata

defying gravity

It's time to trust my instincts

close my eyes and leap...

it's time to try defying gravity...

And you won't bring my down.

God's creation

Source: weheartit.com

Not that I'm a big fan of cats, but the pics above ^ melt my heart ;)

when people leave...

Why do people leave ?

I guess it's because they have to, like for instance, going overseas to study, stepping on soil that's not their home. I wonder how that feels.

Must be different right. The feeling of alienation and loneliness would slowly creep in, like vines growing on a bare wall, because you're away from family and close friends. But it all comes down to how you'll deal with it, whether you'll allow yourself to be consumed by the doom and gloom, or stand up, dust your bottom and bask under the warm sunshine, taking in everything positively.

I wonder, if I ever go abroad, how will I cope with it?

I think not so good. :(

So, to those who're abroad now and whom I know(I can see each one of your face in my mind now), I truly admire your courage, now that you're in a different environment. Hang in there. And come back soon, please. :DD

"There's no place like home." -Dorothy Gale, from The Wizard of OZ.

Source:http://dukeofspade.deviantart.com/art/home-sweet-home-177132531

McDs ! No matter how many times I psyched myself that this particular outlet is overrated, I can't help it but to go there when I wanna eat fast food.

Why why why.

I think I'm very queer because I find McDees pricey and the food is not worth the price at all, but I still eat their burgersssss !

Are you like me too ? (: If we are then Hi-5! If not, then, good for you lah.

Sorry this post is very random. tah tah

not one of those days.

I'm feeling very annoyed and paranoid. ugh hate it.

And no it's not because of the soon-to-be-released results.

it's because of my paranoid mind thinking of all the reasons of why this particular thing happened, albeit being a very small thing.

A very very VERY small thing indeed! i need to train my mind to not jump into conclusions so darn fast. pfft.

reminder to self: it's all about serving God la, not anything else. *smacks head*

ok.. i'm glad that was out.

BYE.

brilliant. *applause*

Adakah itu betul ?

http://www.bumigemilang.com/?p=6475

STPM results out on MY BIRTHDAY ???? (refers to link above)

You gotta be kidding me.

It could be my BEST birthday ever or my ... WORST.

Oh man the agony !!!

I hope it ain't true.

dream on ...

I realized I have been blogging every single day without fail. Nice. This happens when you have nothing to do after finishing STPM. VERY Nice. *sarcasm

Apparently my mum doesn't want me to bum around so she is looking for a job for me, asking me to prepare a CV.

I'm not bothered looking for a job but she is. Quite ironic but nevermind I'll let her do it lah. Save me the hassle. Haha you must be thinking, 'gosh what a lazy girl tien mie is.' Well the truth is you're absolutely correct. Bullseye.

Have a great day, stay positive !

Check this out ! So cute la. just click your mouse in the box above to feed 'em.

a new leaf

weheartit.

Since I'm outta YF officially, I have decided to serve in the music&arts ministry. (; I pray that I'll serve with a right heart.

Anyway I am very very glad that Form6 is ovah and done with. I know I've mentioned this before but I still can't get over the fact that I actually sat for STPM, the hardest exam so far in my entire life (harder than music exams lah!). Results are expected to be out in early March. :-( Am I scared ? Yeah, you bet. I just hope I don't PHAIL any paper. If I manage to get C's for economics and Sejarah I would be SO happy already.

Argh thinking about it makes me jittery !

tahtah.

Growing up is difficult.

pic from weheartit.

many questionz

phew CNY is finally over. food, going relatives' houses, reunions - tiring.

the ONE BIG QUESTION people always, always ask me:

-SO what do you plan to do in uni ?

And I give the same answer over and over and over and over again. It's like the answer is ingrained in my memory and I just reply it without much thinking. I can't blame them because that's how people strike conversations. But I've answered so many people, I think I might just blurt out, 'Oh I dunno.' end of story.

Second question people ask: SO now what are you doing now after stpm?

Answer: Bumming around.

then they reply: Oh why dowan to work ah?

Answer: Um nope dont think so I want to enjoy my holidays. lazy.

HAH. take that ! :P

nyom.

I like Grey's Anatomy. (: Nice show, nice cast, nice storyline, nice everything.

*Yumm. I'm contented with just this.

Ah so cute.

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'When God leads you to the edge of a cliff, trust Him fully and let go, only one of two things will happen, either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly.'

-email from dad. (:

happy cny, though I'm not in the mood for it.

tah-tah!

meh.

Mood : blah. uneasiness. reluctance. nonchalant.

*shrugs.

"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing; Just pray to a God that I so believed in (;" - The Script. (changed the lyrics at the end)

"So that's the best advice I could give - just keep moving forward and don't give a crap what anybody thinks. You know, just keep moving forward and do what you have to do, for you."

-Johnny Depp-

so true.