again. and again.

It comes, it goes.

People busy spring-cleaning, baking cookies, preparing angpaus, hanging painfully red decorations on their front doors, tossing yee sang, blasting chinese songs to their hearts' content, not being allowed to wear black because it supposedly brings 'bad luck' (pooh, no such thing lah. I believe in God, not luck), visiting relatives, mechanically saying 'thank you' while plastering a forced smile after receiving them red packets ....

Jaded? -yeah.

I'm sorry, but I dont see the hype of cny. I really don't. i guess i haven't jumped on the bandwagon yet - and i don't intend to.

I think, I have become the Grinch of CNY. Yeah, yeah carry on with your celebrations. Don't mind me at all. *snorts*

of gambus and guitars

so far, my hols have been pretty amazing. Some catching ups and meeting new (but very nice and friendly and inspiring/encouraging) people. Don't you just love holidays like these. :) More to come definitely!

I'm planning to go back and visit my CF in taman sea. Should I? A part of me says yeah I should, it's been a while since I stepped on taman sea grounds. It's been a while since I re-connect again with the juniors..I miss them!! But part of me says no, I should let them...breathe, in a sense. I should move forward and walk on.

But i think i'm gonna go back :) hehe.

I was just thinking, when sem2 comes, I'll be stepping a whole lot more out of my comfort zone. I can't say I'm not afraid, because I am. But I'm pretty excited to see myself reaching greater heights and growing heaps. It's gona be an unpredictable journey.

I'm also turning 21 in exactly a month's time, and I'm not ready yet!! I feel so...matured. The number 21 does not suit my personality. I feel that I'm still very immature to be given that 'Twenty One' title. Is it because I hang out with people younger than me? erm. dunno.

the new has come

Semester 1 came to an end today. :) I can't believe it either. Four months passed, just like that?! nice.

Summary of sem1 (that I vividly remembered):

-met many people from everywhere.
-formed lasting friendships with course mates. nadia, pearly, mai, michelle, yeemei, wana, wen, grace, nyna, vana...many more. I learned something new from each one of them :-)
-I learned to think for myself and make decisions. wise ones lah. i also learned what it's like to be a uni student-exploring UM grounds by walking, taking the bus, staying in campus, being a 'grown up'...kinda fun you know.

-made a commitment to serve in pkv. sometimes I ask myself why did I agree to take up that position. then fear starts to crowd my thoughts =/ but I remind myself again and again, it's because I want to step out of my comfort zone. I don't wana be the same person like last year, nestled comfortably in my own lil' treehouse. I need a lil' push. to grow.

that's about it. I'll make it a point to journal down all that has happened in sem1. It's good to journal you know. :)

Happy hols. Have fun. I DEFINITELY WILL.

i'm six feet off the edge..

when you're taking a course related to English, people generally expect you to speak in proper sentences with zero grammatical errors. Well not for me :D I have a habit of speaking in manglish..with the lahs, mahs, wans, aiyohs.. i fail as an English teacher. =="

some people who're not taking a course related to English can speak and write WAY better than I do. And I respect them :) like a friend I know, she's doing pharmacy, but I read her blog and she pens her own poems (how..is tht possible?! I cant) and write short stories. wow...

my exams end this tuesday! :-))))) im very very happy and excited. can't wait for it to end. imagine all the things i'm gona do when it ends. K la mostly a lot of makan here and there and catch up sessions. But that's good.

'til this tuesday! cheers.

*the title of this post is from Creed's One Last Breath. I liked the beginning of the song. It's in Db Major.

pa-padu-baa...

I was at my college choir practice today, and in walked Miss Tracy, our choir advisor/teacher. And when I saw her I thought, why does she look so familiar? Where have I seen her. And bam! It hit me. She is from a famous local a capella quartet called Caipifruta. I first came across this group when I was watching The Breakfast show on ntv7 and they were the guests to talk la on the show.

And when I heard them sing I was blown away la. Perfect pitch, flawless...really good. So I googled them, found their facebook page and liked it. Never would I thought that one of the singers is our coach for my college choir.

Am I happy? Uh..duh. Am I honoured? Very. Am I inspired? YES, pumped up!

Thank you Miss Tracy. You are an inspiration to all of us, (to me especially hee) to sing well and to not give up on music. (er..yeah, I forgot to mention I felt a lil' jaded on music, and I doubted my musicality. But I guess the passion is restored. for now :D).

Here's a video of them. Miss Tracy is the lady with long tresses. And they are awesome enuf said!! Please watch? Notice the harmony and zero flaws. (for me)

here I come weekends! Busy busy, but enjoying it.

20 + 1

oh yeah 5 more days and i'm done with exams. come on, time, speed up! :P

in about a month's time, I'm turning 21. The age where I'm not a 'teen' anymore, where I have the right to vote. <-yep, i'll make sure I vote for the right party. *cough cough*

The thought of turning 21 makes me feel old =/ I duno la, I guess because most of my peers are still in the 'teenager phase'. And that makes me old. =p Also, being 21 means I'm an adult = decisions to make = more responsibilities.

But you know what? I'm going to enjoy it. :-) And embrace whatever that comes. Woo hoo, optimism coming your way. -_-"

Now I know how people in the age group of 21 and above feels like. Old, but young at heart. Ya know, when I talk to people younger than me, I somewhat have a different perception from them. My opinions are equivalent to standing on a watchtower with a vast 360-degree view of the land, whereas theirs are like standing on a big, somewhat tall stone with only half the view of mine. You get what I'm tryin' ta say? Yeah. So. That's how I feel being 21.

However, I do enjoy hanging out with them because they make me feel young and carefree again. :) The joy of chilling with peers younger than you is that they can make you feel a lil old but young at the same time. I chose to focus on the latter, simply because..their 'young-ness' is too contagious to ignore. And that's a very good thing. Hee :)

tata.