essence.

'that is the secret of happiness and virtue--liking what you've got to do. All conditioning aims at that: making people like their unescapable social destiny.'

'happiness has got to be paid for'.

-taken from Brave New World by Aldous Huxley

that's my literature read for english lit in STPM. Tough undeniably, but my eyes were immediately opened to the horizons of the lit world, how to read between the lines and to not take everything literally, but figuratively.

one of the choices of my uni courses were TESL and linguistics(english). These two require a written test and an interview!! Must start reading and writing from now just in-case.

tata fellow readers! The weekend is approaching, time to take off your socks and dip your feet in ice cold water.

Roses

I saw a video posted on my friend's wall(yvonne ng) and at once, nostalgically I felt a certain 'something' rushing through my veins. I don't know how to describe that, but let's say you JUST heard a song that goes way back in 2008, like maybe Nickelback's 'Hero', you get that nostalgic sensation right??

And what song you might wonder that caused me to feel that way?

ta-da! 'Roses' by Outcast.

Cover by The Maine.

Honestly I have not heard this song in a LONG time, so to hear it again was just...really nice and cool. Then it made me wanted to play this song on the piano :) For those of you who heard the original version by Outkast, it started off with some bluesy, syncopated-timing tunes on the piano, like this below:

Sorry if this vid doesn't sound very clear, but this guy played it the correct syncopated-timing whereas other vids their timing is like everywhere, lintang-pukang. tsk tsk.

Have you heard it? Quite tricky to play this by ear right?

I had to listen to it over and over and over again and play on the piano thousands of times--until I think my neighbours are annoyed (sorry!)--to FINALLY PLAY IT WITHOUT MISTAKES, like the vid above.

The satisfaction I got was just...priceless. It was a very good feeling, like I've scaled Mount Everest or something. I also got to test my hearing abilities and see whether I'm up to par or not :P Maybe u should try it too! See whether you can do it.

Conclusion: So that's why I like playing the piano by ear. Ka-ching*

I'm happy.

Hi.

Goodie morning. :)

Yesterday was a productive easter practice. We're doing hand mimes this yr (with UV lights) and phew we managed to do the 1st verse and chorus of At The Cross.

We're so near to conquering the whole song. :P

My neighbour on my right is doing some major drilling and I CANT STAND IT. On the verge of insanity!!!! So. Very. LOUD!!! at 8am in the morning! Who does drilling at that time, waking up the whole neighbourhood?? wth. Ugh. I am annoyed.

*I need to be bold.

fredo.

Hello. there.

I think Gnarls Barkley looks like Ceelo Green. :)

When I was just staring blankly at the telly a light bulb lit up in my head, and out popped these words: Gnarls Barkley, Crazy. It was like a jolt, a realization of something, but I don't know what.

Tried getting the code for the official video but can't. Please listen to it if you haven't.

this song is unique, like there's a special essence to it, unlike the usual mainstream music. Very...queer, eccentric, a lil' bluesy.

But I still like John Mayer for his impeccable bluesy-jazzy skills.

so fly.

do re mi, mi fa so.

la ti do.

I wish to own a grand piano when I'm older. The average price of a normal, not grand, piano is about RM17,000. I kid you not! Or maybe at least RM10,000 (this does not include secondhand pianos)

So you can imagine how much a grand piano costs. But it's not impossible! My dream of owning a grand piano is attainable for sure.

*picture from Google*

would you just look at that sleek, handsome, tuxedo-inspired grand piano?

i want it! Somebody please be a kind soul and buy me this for my 21st birthday :)

Imagine the melodious sound this fly thing can churn out. Thinking about it gives me goose bumps! Fellow pianists, unite :)

sweet by and by

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

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I am a sloth! Couldn't agree better. Oh I think they also forgot about complacency and procrastination.

Try it and see for yourself. :)

**

When I was in church this morning for Senior Citizens Fellowship (to play piano, not as a member--not yet, anyway),I was chatting with one very old but wise lady. All of a sudden I felt something tweaked my heart.....she(and all of them) reminded me of my late gramma. :')

Ah well. It was truly wonderful to provide music for them to sing, and to see them coming (room was filled to the brim) despite their age/difficulty walking, they still made an effort to come. Not even age can hinder them from gathering together. And with that I was encouraged today.

I like talking to them too! =) Nice folks.

some stuff

I'm very happy that my favourite and long-lost show, Bones is now back on tv! Rejoice, fellow ardent fans of Bones! And I have a feeling that this season won't disappoint me, 'cause the directors decided to pursue the chemistry sparked by the two main characters, Booth and Bones of course. Finally! And very clever of them.

So I'm still jobless at the moment 'cause I didnt get the admin asst job (hurray!) as I think it'll be mundane. So, now I'm contented at where I am, albeit a little boring I suppose.

One thing I like about life is the glorious food waiting to be devoured by us humans. I mean, I came to realize that there are a lot of nice, finger-licking food that I missed out on and this saddens me haha. I am indeed a food lover, but it's time to jaga my weight or else I'll go overboard. Must control for my own good!

So, food. Yum! Very nice and satisfying to the soul. Definitely worth it. I wonder how the food in uni taste like. Horrible? Mediocre? Splendid? I have yet to try! And then my uni friends and I can go for late-night mamaks after classes and come back stuffed to the brim, not to mention the increase in weight and waistline. That's why must jaga !

All pictures courtesy from weheartit.com

I would love to eat any of the above, anytime, any day.

ta.

get it right.

found this in weheartit. So true! Some people I know get confused between these two words.

Example:

1) Your going to the mall today.

incorrect!

It's:

You're going to the mall today

Doesn't it irk you that people get mixed up between these two words? It's like the basis of the English language we learn.

"Some understanding of grammar is fundamental to learning a language"-Cambridge dictionary.

There was a guy who asked me what I plan to do in uni(almost EVERYONE asked me that), so I said 'My first choice is English in UM'. And he went, "Eeeyer."

What's so gross about the English course I wonder? Probably because it's not as glamorous as a law course/accountancy/medicine/dentistry/architecture wtv. What a narrow-minded, stereotypical thinking of a Malaysian.

haha. ha. tata!

oh yeah

I have a soar throat now after my diarrhoea. brilliant.

time to fall sick again.

*when the dog bites

when the bee stings

when I'm feeling sad

I simply remember my favourite things

And then I don't feel so bad*

~Sound of Music~

I still have a bout of diarrhoea, but less pain in the stomach. Why oh why isn't the food clean ???

And apparently I'm not the only one who had it. Quite a few people leh. =(

There's a possibility that we have food poisoning.

So, cleanliness of food is HIGHLY IMPORTANT to avoid a massive diarrhoea breakout, especially for big camps like these.

At least it isn't so bad now compared to yesterday. hmmph.

On the brighter side(if there's any!!!), I'll treat this diarrhoea as 'detoxification' for my stomach.

See, there's always something positive in everything. *snorts. :PP

*

Just came back from cf camp in rawang. To wrap it up it was nice, good fun, great catching-ups, BUT bad food. Really bad. This morning at 5am I woke up with a TERRIBLE tummy ache, like something pulling my guts. Flatulence ? Yeah I think so, but a very teruk one.

Until now I still have a little bit, on and off. I blame the not-properly-cooked chicken !! There was still chicken blood init when I ate it, and not wanting to waste food I eat la.

Apparently a few people also had the same thing as me. They had to take pills some more.

I'll never ever eat a half-raw chicken, ever again.

Thank God, it's not so bad now.

waitin on the world to change

I'm going off for CF camp tomorrow :) 'til wed. and thurs is easter practice. UV light dance! Interesting.

half of my heart

HII.

Went out with my tuition friend, Qi Jun today. =) Had a great time of catching ups and gossips here and there with laughs and sushi king's and nail polishes and grocery shoppings.

So, I was just thinking back about my interview. Well so happened my interviewer, Mrs. X used to go to my church, on and off, occasionally, and then stopped. The first thing she asked me was:

"what church are you from?"

-"The Life Chapel."

*mata terbeliak*<--correct spelling?

So our conversation started from there. Haha like ice-breaker. Anyway, what I thought was, "what a coincedence, she used to go TLC.."

And then a thought hit me; Did God put me there for a reason ?

:) I'll find out soon when she calls me(if she does) to inform me whether I did get the job.

**title of this blog post is a song by John Mayer ft. Taylor Swift.

up up and away

Hi. Hello there. How do you do.

I went for my interview already and surprisingly I wasn't nervous. I prayed and told Him I'll just rely on Him and truth be told, the nervousness faded. whee. I think it went ... ok. But they're looking for full-time not part-time so my chances are pretty slim.

Well it's ok I'm fine with it. Can bum around at home more HEH.

5 things to achieve in my life span (actually there's A LOT, but, here's the top ones):

1) be a good Christian.

2) for now, enter uni with the course I applied for, get first class honours, get a good job.

3) be a matured, knowledgeable, loving, sincere woman of substance.

4) make my parents proud! Be grateful to them even when I'm 30.

5) uh...be good at my playing the piano. I mean, be the very best! Able to meet my expectations. (I do have high expectations of myself on this one. But I tend to not meet it.)

ta-da ! Got some more la of course. That'll have to wait.

adios.

Hmm

I'm going for a job interview tomorrow hee. Nervous! argh...

If I get it I'll be an admin assistant, and I'm not sure what I'll be doing haha.

Some more this office is very very near my house, just opposite TV3 studio, near OU. bleh! so near.

oh wells wish me luck! No idea what questions they're gona ask, so just expect anything larh. No biggie.

animal.

sorry I think I have a fetish for John Mayer. =) Hope he comes to MSIA!

On second thought probably not, I think the 'holey' authorities here will say TIDAK before I can even say J-o-h-n.

I've been doing a lot of cat-watching lately. Yeah heard of that before? :PP

Please spare me I know I'm weird. Since I'm at home rotting away(I'll find a job soon, wait ah), I like to watch the stray cats that come into my porch. The way they're always alert of their surroundings, ears perked up all the time even when asleep, their tendons/ligaments wtv moving back and forth when they walk(or trot. or..crawl?)

miao. I watched Black Swan already. Nice movie, in an artsy way, with ballet and all. An eye-opener to me as I never would have known how ballet dancers practice to perfection. But this movie is also dark in a way, must watch it with an open mind.

bye.

weheartit.

It's march already! So fast. Time to find a job =P maybe later lah.

Easter's coming, then soon it'll be uni, then christmas, then one year has gone by.

And soon I'll be twenty-one (!!!) and then thirty, fourty, sixty, seventy!

I can't see where I'll be & what I'll be doing in the future. Married, perhaps? Without kids?(I like that) old and crinkly most likely.

what about friends? from work, church, school, along the way... who'll be married to who? Who's gona be the famous one heh.. etc etc etc

have you wondered about all these? haha, i have la, like so many times.

life is beautiful. I like it a lot =D

come on.

we pianists are sometimes taken for granted. To those who aren't musically inclined, we're just the ones who provide music. That's all.

But they'll never know how much time and effort we put in to hone our playing and painstakingly pick our brains to figure out the chords of an out-of-this-world song.

I think there should be a recognition for us, like 'Appreciate a Pianist Day' or something.

Just saying.

weheartit.

John Mayer is the epitome of awesomeness, of everything bluesy, jazzy, unique and original.

***

I don't like how I am overly sensitive over small matters.

=/

less noise, please

-weheartit-

my uni application has been successfully sent in yesterday at 7.45pm ! Phew I'm glad that's done.

I'm gona take a break and go for CF camp on 14th-16th. Can't wait to catch up with the cf tamansea-ians. In the meantime, I ahve been procrastinating in finding a job! BAD.

what's more, my other neighbour's doing some major renovations which include:

1) Drilling. the worst kind. It damages not only my delicate eardrums but also my sanity, causing constant outbursts of IRRITATION.

2) banging. not as bad as drilling, but still !!

the drilling is SO LOUD it's as if they're drilling in my house. =(

The thing to look forward to are these rare, precious moments of silence when the drilling stops; peace, tranquility, serenity, heaven-like--only to be short-lived by another dose of drilling.

!!!!

state of mind: on the brink of insanity.

flashback

those were the days.

star*light

-weheartit.

One of the things about staying at home and doing nothing is that you get to think a lot about everything that happened in your life.

That's what I did.

And ponder did I, about how immature I was in high school--and still immature now. Really, I'm very naive, I trust people too easily and I think that everyone in this world is nice. I think I'm dependent too, and I'm enjoying myself in my little comfort zone.

I guess it's time to grow up, time to be independent, to learn how to fend for myself, to realize the world has its good and bad sides... there's just too many things to learn, I don't think I'll be able to comprehend all of these.

Hopefully, HOPEfully, I'll learn when I enter uni. Things will be much different.

Better be prepared for the roller-coaster ride.

jar of hearts.

source : deviantart

applied for uni yesterday but havent send in yet, 'cause haven't really confirmed what courses I wanna take lol. Let's just say applying for uni is not easy!!! Can't wait for it to be over.

I thank God for many things, and one of it is that my migraine is over, because it was the WORST ever headache I have. I suspect I might have high blood pressure, 'cause my ears were ringing yest and I felt the strain on the back of my neck. these are some of the symptoms !!

I also wanna thank God for how far He has brought me, through stpm, CF, all the stress that I've been through haha, and how I've grown so much in church, in life, in everything when I look back. It's always very refreshing to be thankful of what I have, and where I am now. It acts as a reminder to not be jealous, or bitter, which sometimes I admit, I do feel that way towards someone or something that happened recently.

So yeah =)

P.S. I hate renovations. especially drilling.